I've been blogging for a long time. My parents had AOL dial-up when I was in middle school (we're talking '95-'97ish), and I had my own website even way back then. It was mostly a collection of Letterman Top-Ten lists, funny pictures that I'd gathered, and cryptic messages about the girls I liked at school. What can I say, I've always been at the cutting edge of all things dorky.
Then I guess you know the story. Blogging went on to become an actual thing that actual people do. Suddenly everyone is a writer. I rode that wave for a long time, and maintained several blogs where I'd talk about whatever project I was working on, or just the randomness of my life at that time. But I always blogged with my true identity, even going back to my AOL days. I posted pictures, names, stories, etc. Friends and family knew about my blog, and would visit frequently. It was not always easy because shortly after returning from my Mormon mission I "lost my testimony" (that's Mormon-speak for "stopped believing"), and became in many ways a disappointment in the eyes of my family and friends.
So I wrote carefully and deliberately. Watched my language. Omitted certain story lines. I tried my best to be reverent in order to avoid offending anyone. Eventually my writing slowed to a crawl, and then stopped all together. I like writing, and have always enjoyed blogging, but I went through about a two year writers block where I couldn't think of anything to say.
I was recently thinking about my time at BYU, and how I have a kind of unique perspective of the school, Mormonism, and life in general. What's sad isn't so much that I've been unable to share that perspective, but that I'm beginning to forget the details myself. So I've started a new blog, this time anonymous, in order to be able to express myself freely, to share my experience as an atheist at BYU, and hopefully to help those who went or are going through a similar experience. Enjoy!